Life Happened
Dear Manu,I don’t know what happened…. Life. Life happened.
We both grow and change. It seems to be our pattern to reach out every March
to touch and feel again.
Life happened here. I made decisions and now I choose. I choose that I have
responsibilities and possibilities.
I am the game.
The question I ask myself is what kind of player am I in the game of life?
My other question is: what happened that I decided to let you go?
I don’t think I could ever let you go. You touch me too deeply.
I choose you. I choose you as you come… on a different continent, far away,
with a girlfriend, out of touch for months, busy, a stranger and a lover, a
dream, a trip away from reality. I choose all of it. Last year, I felt that
I had to cut you out of my life… that you were unhealthy for me. So I made a
decision to forget you.
Now, I realize that I don’t have to forget you, nor do I have to meet you
again under papaya trees or anywhere else in the world. I choose you as the
mystery being who creates a deep thumping sensation in my groin.
Yes, I am looking for someone to design a retail store for me. Perhaps, it
will be you…. Perhaps not. Yes, your friend, Mika, is wonderful and sent me
many fantastic links…. Thank You. I am looking for jewelry right now. If you
can keep your eyes open for me… for something special and unique. If you can
find a winning line for me to represent... I would love you more. Thank you.
I am happy to hear that you will be moving to Mexico. Congratulations. This
is a beautiful dream now a possibility being placed into existence. It is
amazing to learn of your goals and hard work and motivation to make them happen.
I bought a house in Vancouver. Responsibility. I move in a month.
My business is doing well. I am looking for investors to invest in it. I
want to grow it. I believe very strongly in this business and every day I
meet opposition. Every day I choose what is happening and to approach my
incredible amount of activity and stress with grace and ease. I want to be a
demonstration of a powerful human with the capability to make dreams happen
just as they are dreamed and greater than even that.
I have re-read your past emails.... and I have chosen an onslaught of photos
to send to you... it has been so long. You will see India and two photos from
my new house before I took possession. It is a strange feeling this house is
in these photos. Alone and distant.
What I realized in choosing these photos from hundreds that are available... I
feel that you are one of a few who enjoys my photos.
posted by Lady Leisure @ 2:25 PM
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