Love
unity
thank you. its always very intense for me to read from
you. i really hope my
letter will reach you. i sent it from nicaragua, maybe
the poeple in the
post office do not work fast at all.
i'm here in mazunte again and i enjoy my last weeks at
the pacific coast.
how i love it, how i need it. thinking back home hurts
deep and i am scared
to step back.
i will write you more soon. i want to give you a
reminder. i kiss you.
manuel
Love
Manuel
Life is here. Yet, sometimes I don't feel that I am here or I don't feel that life is here. Sometimes I feel unknown by the people whom are suppose to be closest to me. I don't want to take it personally but it can hurt. When I try to show them who I am, then I am just trying and not who I am. There is nothing present about that at all.
My leap off the safety of my cliff as begun. I do feel afraid sometimes and usually only when I feel nostalgic for my job, my friends, the dog I don't have, and the apartment I am moving out of.
This is life.
Last week I went to visit my sister, her husband and their 2 kids in Ottawa. It was amazing to see them, especially the kids - but I was so bored. Conversations were about how clean and organized the local super huge grocery store was maintained. This is not me. This type of family sitting down in house with a white picket fence and watching tv.
I want to bring excitement, success, happiness, energy, and love into my life. I want to live my life as a dream. Here I sit on my computer at 6:30am as it is still dark outside writing about this dream life. Am I starting it?
I have not received your letter which you wrote about in your last email. I generally use my parents address as a homebase because I move around so much. If you would like to write here it is.
V6M 1K7
Canada
Now I want to hear about your adventures. I need a reminder. I need the motivation to buy a plane ticket and get my visas. It is so strange that I reach out to you. I feel that I can lay myself open to you through my words. I want to open myself now.
Happy Belated 30th Birthday.
I turn 28 in 9 days. Time slips by so beautifully and so quickly.
Butterflies in my body.
Hugs,
Unity
